It seems I find myself awake at 12:43. It's to late to call my friends so, after crying in my room for a half hour or so, I'm writing a journal.
I'm upset about a bunch of things. For one, I haven't spoken to my father in over a month. When he calls he never asks for me, only my sisters and tells them how much he misses them. If I answer the phone he still doesn't talk to me and asks for my sisters.
I'm not used to not getting any of my mom's time. I understand that she is very much in love with her new boyfriend but ..
I'd like to spend time with her. He sees her more then I do and if I ask her to do something with me .. she ALWAYS brings him.
Plus, I dislike that she lies to me. I thought we could hand tonight but she went out for a drink. Okay, she says she wont be out late .. but as you can tell, she still isn't home.
Plus, if she isn't with Patrick on a night she works then she goes to bed at 10 but if she is with him then well it's okay to stay up till 1 when you work the next morning.
I think the only thing I'm happy with right now are my friends, I love them dearly.
Also, I don't feel quite as overwhelmed with school anymore. So some things are getting better.

Sorry this is so long, I just found myself breaking down with no one to talk to.
xoxo
Danielle.